An exploration of how it feels to be breathless by Ann Hutchinson
What is it like to feel breathless each day?
More than being unable to catch your breath for a few moments after say running for a bus…
Like breathing through material stuffed in your mouth
Like having your head in the clouds
Suffocating, smothering, stifling
Breathlessness is a near constant companion, a thorn in your side. More than a physical sensation of having difficulty breathing: a whole-person experience, an interpersonal experience, a spatial encounter.
You become very aware of your bodily sensations and your thoughts, feelings and actions…
Alone, worried, frightened, panicked, claustrophobic, limited
You become aware of places around you and slight slopes become hills, stairs scare you…
You become aware of others’ responses to you and your breathlessness…
Misunderstood, invisible, dependent, lost “But you look alright”
And how does this all sum together?
Depressed, overwhelmed, self-conscious, reliant, unnoticed
And how is it to be breathless now in the time of Covid-19?
What new words describe your experience now?
Confined, vulnerable, shielded, isolated
How do healthcare spaces feel now? How does it feel to think about needing to go to hospital?
Places to be avoided if at all possible? Or places of safety?
Which fear is greater? The fear of going to the hospital and possibly catching Covid-19 or the fear of breathlessness overwhelming you as you struggle at home?
For advice on how to manage breathlessness read the Guide to living well with breathlessness. All images are (c) rights reserved, The University of Hull.
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